Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Went out with mummy and sis, went to eat dinner at Sakae Sushi and Shopping. It's kinda fun but raining. Been raining for like almost 1week? Bought a checkered short pants at fashion.LAB. Friday going town shopping again! Yay! Hahas. While walking, saw whitney, i was like so happy! I didn't know why too. just happy. Later might be going out again. So bored at home. Nothing much to blog too.
Why do all good things comes to an end?

I'm no longer the sad Star anymore(:

Sigh, I can't make myself believe this happening to me. God, Tell me pls, What did i do that i got this in return?

Thought we were happily together. He told me, he wanna be with me for years. He treated me the best, he's always there for me when i'm down, he always the one and i thought he would be the only one for me, and he's the longest relationship i had. But i was wronged, All wronged.

Why can't he just choose either me or her? He didn't choose and he hurt us both. Don't you think you're cruel? I got into committing suicide ended up in hospital, cried almost every single day, why did you made me suffer so so much? Did i betrayed you or what? I guess not. I loved you so much yet you did this to me and her.

Friends around me told me not to get back to you. But i did because of my stupidity and i loved you so much, i got back with you. From the start, i'm a f-king fool to you. Forgiving you time and time again.

Fcuking lied to me many times that i didn't even know. You're such a big time liar. So many things.

Now i've learnt from my mistakes. I've regretted that what i've done all this wasn't worth it for someone like you who played girls feelings. I won't fall into this bullshit anymore. Even though, i can't put this love for you so easily, but i know, one day it will. Do you know how hurtful this is? I guess you don't even know cause you're cold blooded.

And seriously i Hate guys who times girls feelings on and on again. Fcuk them.

Everything is Over now. It's all over and never will i step into this bullshit again. Even though, it takes time for me to stop loving you. I will. It will take times to heal my broken heart.

Starting a brand new day. Spending times with my friends, Bestie, Derder. Staying happy and i'm not the sad Star anymore.

Thanks guys for comforting me. I really appreciate it. (:

Monday, December 25, 2006

Merry Christmas to Everyone! Ytd, went out with my Whit. Hahas. We went Fisherman Village for drinking. Hahas. It was kinda bored but fun. Saw Wei bin and his friends over there and we sit down awhile and talk to him. Hahas. he's funny bufalo. =x After then, whit went to find her friend at the another side of fisherman, hahas. so we went to join them. Sooner later, Guan wei came. We were like bored. Hahas. Overall, it's fun. Anyway, going out to enjoy myself later. Hahas. Tata's. That's all for now. I Love You, Bestie! Always been there for me. Thanks Guys. (: <3


Lies after Lies, Now i know. Fcuk you, Bastard! You're out of my beautiful life. You ruined it. Thanks to you. Damn it.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006

A song that dedicated to me by someone.

When I see your smile,
tears roll down my face,
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know ill find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my
you're my
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away.

Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know ill be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Friday, December 15, 2006

Staying home for the whole day. Stone-ing at home.
Sigh, ytd was a tearing day for me. Cry for whole night. Eyes are swollen like a fish.
I'm really Sorry for those harsh words i said to you. Because i was angry, i said those things. Now i'm all alone. He need times to cool down. This time, i really made him real pissed off. I didn't mean to do that. I hope he's feelings won't fade for me. I miss him so so much. I guess i've fallen real deeply in this relationship. I don't wanna this to end. I know i should have gone home when you asked me to. But i didn't, cause i wanna talk things out with you. I feel that you're really avoiding me. I really don't know what else to do. All i can do now is saying Sorry to you. Will you give me one more chance? I'm really really very Sorry. I need you in my life):

If ever you're in my arms again, this time i'll love you much better.

Monday, December 11, 2006

Uhms, been quite a long time since i blog. Guess my blog has dead. No time to blog either. Always been out till damn late. Ton over night. Ytd, went to chill and drink only. I was kinda drunk lah i guess. After that, went to my bf's house and stay. Around night time, Athalie and Deqing came to his house and find him. After awhile, slack at his house downstairs and i took cab back home with Athalie. Came home, bathe and everything, use com played Audition. Help justin to edit his damn photos. So troublesome and choosy. Damn him. Nevermind about him. Anyway, Been quite a boring day today. So came to blog a little. After this going to sleep. Nothing much to blog already. So, tatas everyone(:

Darn it, i can't upload photos in here. No idea how to upload photos now.

I miss my baby.
Love him to bits(:

Sunday, November 26, 2006

I HOPE he treating me so good isn't fake. He bought a couple ring. The Ring Of Love. We promised each other, Don't hide anything from each other, have things just say. And he said, the ring represent that he promise we will be together forever. At far east, at some smoking place? We went to smoke, was with Athalie, Deqing. Dear even kneel down and put the ring in my finger and there's people looking also, i was so paiseh. xD Like as if he's marrying me. Hahas. I just hope this isn't just making me happy. But i'm really happy that he loves me and i loves him too! xD My life are filled with colours now. He's the one lighting up my life. My one and only dearest, Darren! iLy-
I will blog about a little about this few days what i've done. On Wed, watched Colic with Darren. It was quite scary. Anyway, i'm back with Darren. He's treating me much better then last time already. After show, met DeQing. Lazy and no time to blog. Always sleep, wake up go out already. Then stay out till very late and tired. On thursday, friday, Chill with friends. Boring but kinda fun. Hahas. Saturday, Went town with DearDear, Athalie and DeQing. Went shopping. Deqing bought 2 shirt from Stussy and X-large, Athalie bought a pair of jean, Baby and i bought belt. After shopping with them. Justin came along too. After then, we decided to catch a movie. Watched 9.56. This movie is damn freaky scary lah! I don't even dare to open my eyes and see. Kept closing my eyes. Hahas. Was real scary. Everyone, Catch that Movie. Damn freaky. Hahas. Alright, After movie we headed back tamp, chill. For Sunday, Meet my baby, DeQing and Nelson. Chill and after that went DeQing's house play Playstation. Hahas. The first time i came his house, asked him to take drinks for me and all. Lols. Then he said "You think you Princess isit?! This is my house leh!!" Lols. Damn funny. It was fun with them. After that, around 12am we went to eat and Baby headed home and now I miss him dearly! =x I guess That's all for now. Gonna head to bed. Tatas.

Saturday, November 18, 2006

Last two days, went hospital for check-up. Darren accompany me. This few days, he's been waking up early for me. I'm really happy. We're friends, though i still love him alot. Back to the point, after check-up. Met whit at orchard. She wanna buy a gift for dom, so went with her. We were having fun ourself too. She is damn choosy! Lols. Go quite alot of places. After she bought the gift for her bf, we headed to eat at Cine. Damn fun. After eating, went out to fag. New word learnt. Hahas. Soon after, we went to meet whit's bf, and dom's friends. Cause we don't know what to do, so they planned! We went PartyWorld to sing songs. With them, really won't feel a little boredness. Always having programmes to do. Hahas. That's very cool of them. We sang till 3+ am, after that we cab home already. Uhms, that's all for now? Don't know what to blog much. I can't post photos sia):

Later going to my friend's Birthday party. Happy Birthday to DeQing in Advance(:

Friday, November 10, 2006

Since it's a boring day today for me, i shall blog a little. Okay. On the 7th Nov, i'm admitted into hospital due to overdosage of pills. Not panadols. 23 tablets of Paracetamol. Aww, Now thinking of it, i feel like puking. Just discharged yesterday noon. Warded in hospital is real scary for me. Neverminds, i won't say much. Cause i don't want any one to sympathies me.

Later, i shall have fun, don't think so much of anything. Spend my days, shopping. Even though, it's hard for me to erase those memories, but i've to, in order to lead a better life. I can't hang on to the past all the time. Anyway, Going to meet my Whit at Town, watch Movie. That's all for now.

To you,
Those memories we've known, all the laughter and fun. I'm starting to miss those days when i'm with you. It's real hard for me to forget you now, but i'll pray that we could start from the scratch again. 'ILoveyou', Darren Pereira. From the bottom of my heart.

Sunday, October 29, 2006




Emotional Breakdown.
I can't stand it any longer.
I seriously don't know what should i do to make you mine?
Why are you ignoring me times and times again?
What did i do to make you feel this way?
Why should i be treated like this?


No appetite
Ate pills
Drank cough syrup
Slit my wrist
Smoking

Sunday, October 22, 2006

Today is our 6 Months Anniversary. (:

Although on Sat, we did quarrel abit but at last, okay already. So around 10+ i went to meet MyBaby, Justin and Nelson at Safra. They were playing Dota. After that, we chill at my dear's house playground there. While we walking back, i told him left 15 more mins to our 6 months. Till we reached the playground. We suddenly talk about my dear's nanny. I was laughing non-stop luh. It's really damn funny. Everyone was laughing. So okay. I was sitting at the see-saw. Suddenly, my dear walked towards me and gave me a kiss and say Happy half year anniversary! I was shocked but of course happy luh. Hahas. Okays, after that Nelson went home, awhile later Justin went home too. Left me and my dear. I told him i was hungry. And it was around 12+ am, i don't wanna eat at coffeeshop. So we head to eat at Mc Donald's. We ate happily, smiling smiling all. Hahas. After we ate, he brought me to Pasir Ris Park at around 1am. Although it was quite a Not nice place but Romantic. We sat at the Rock. Only him and me. We were so happily chatting. I love him cuddling me. =X he say was kinda bored, so asked me to on some songs. After that he say, Let's dance. asked me to stand. Lols. So he teached me how to dance. Not those techno or r&b dance. Was the romantic dance. hahas. i was like kinda scared. Scared got people see, i'll shy. Lols! This was the first time he asked me to dance with him. After awhile, i on Buttons by PCD, he loves to dance that song. Hahaha! It was hot and cute when he dance that. So funny! I spent a Wonderful Night with him. Was feeling really happy! Later gonna meet him too cause it's still our anniversary.<3

He says I'm His Little Princess. (:
Dear, Happy 6 months Anniversary!
I, Star Chen Zi Yun Love Darren Frederick Pereira Till Aged<3

Tuesday, October 17, 2006


I Want Both Of This So Much!
I was damn totally sick ytd. Slept around 1+ midnight, and woke up early 10 in the morning. Had a bad headache. My head real hurts. So i rest till 1+ pm, woke up and vomit. Feeling damn horrible. So my sis took medicine for me, but i can't swallow tablets, so she got to beat into pieces for me. So bitter and i vomit everything out again. Nevermind, went to rest till 6+ in the evening. Was feeling much better already. So i get up changed, everything went to meet my hubby. Kept thinking of him everyday. I miss him so so much. Went safra with Nelson, Joel, Justin too. Played Dota. After that, went back to his house awhile. Waiting for Joel to come and we went downstairs to drink. After that Whitney came to meet us too. I miss her so sudden. =x Alright, Drank Absolut Raspberri and Chievas. Hahas. Won't write much how we drink or what. Lols. After that, Whit went to meet *erherm* and i took cab home. Okay, That's all. Will blog again when i'm free(:


4 More Days To Our 6th Month Anniversary. <3
I Love Him More And More Each Day.
Truly Yours,
StarChen.

Sunday, October 15, 2006

I miss him badly, even though i get to see him everyday. Missing him every min every sec. How i wish he could be right by my side always.

I'm so deeply in love with you;<3

Thursday, October 12, 2006

I was so confused. He's treating me the best, and now problem and problems again. Making me angry and sad again. All he want from me was trust, i know. I gave him my trust already. Didn't kept mentioning about that girl's name. Now was another girl. On tuesday, suppose to meet to go BumbleBee. Met all of them at Century. Didn't know Darren went to meet someone else first i guess? This was what i think. I went to see his friendster acct, a girl wrote testi for him and said, Darren, Sorry about yest, i didn't did that on purpose. Are you angry or pissed off. Can see it from your look yest. blah blah blah. What are your point of views? When i read it, my mind was in a lost. Feeling angry, annoyed, sad.

I want to know who did he meet her with and meet her for what? I just want the truth from him! Hope he'll tell me the truth himself.

Won't blog much. Moodless. Woke up 10+ in the morning. Can't get back to sleep. Fuck it! Real Pissed Off for what he did.

Problematic!

Tuesday, October 10, 2006

Photos(:

Your Stories, My Alibis

Thanks For Giving Me Chances

Hold My Hands, And Never Let Me Go

Kiss My Lips, And Take My Breath Away

Retro

The Love That I'll Prove To You(:

-W and S ; Bestie*

Say My Name : Star

Hellooo, woke up by Justin around 2+pm. Saying he was bored working. Nothing to do. Damn mean. I thought what happen. Bastard. Now i can't get back to sleep. Nevermind. Chatted with my friends. So kinda bored today. Later going BumbleBee with my Classmates and Friends. WooHoo~ Hahas. Hope it will be fun later!((x

I Miss You, Darling* (:
Saturday, Went drinking with Whit. Wanna drink and Forgets Everything in our mind. Just broke off with my bf last Thursday. I was sad like hell. We drank till drunk at Fisherman Village. I'm so drop dead at that time, can't really stand up too. Whitney can't even walk properly to the ladies. So i tried my best to walk properly to the toilet after that we went out to drink again. After drinking the very last mug, i was damn drunk, so was Whitney. I lied on the table. Didn't know that Whitney called Darren to come and pick me up. We've broken up, but in the end, he heard about i was drunk, he rush down to fisherman to fetch me home. But i can't go home like this cause mother will scold, so went to his place and sleep. When alight his house downstairs, i vomit everything lahs. After that, he helped me to his room, and i slept his whole bed till he sleep at his sofa. but after awhile, we patched back. I'm like the happiest girl in the world. Lols. Although it's abit lose face to ask for break and patch, but i don't mind at all. I won't even bother how people think cause i love him too much till i can sacrifice anything for him. Even anything to change for him.

To Dear*Darren, if he happen to read it. But i know he won't.
Thanks for taking care of me even though we broke off but we're together now. I was so happy when you came to bring me home when i was drunk at FishermanV. Didn't know you would come cause it's already midnight. And I'm really very very happy at that time when you agreed to be mine again<3*
He's the Guy that i Love and Miss most(:

To Whitney*Bestie,
Thanks for congrating me(: Although he and me have just patched up, but we still do have some conflicts between us. But i know we'll solve it together. Bestie, Look on the bright side okay? Don't make me worry. I know you're still sad over that guy. But from the day you know he's not worth your everything. But you and him are very sweet couple. So loving everytime when i see both of you together. You know who i'm refering to uh? So cheer up kay? Always ask me be strong and all, You must be Strong too okay!? Anything, just ring me up. I'll be there for you! Take Cares alright! Actually, i miss you. =x Don't know why also. Out of a sudden miss you. Love<3

Thanks For Giving Me Chances And Chances Again.
Thank You For Your Love.
I Promise(:



Saturday, October 07, 2006

Come Back To Me Please! Will You! Without You, Things has changed, Don't feel like doing anything. Locked myself in the room for whole day. Didn't eat for today. No appetite.
How i wish you would talk to me. How i wish you would patch with me, ask me out now. I'll be the happiest girl ever. But, this are all my wishful thinking. It won't happen again, I know. I Just want you to be mine again. I regretted. Out of my anger and sadness, i just broke off with him. I cried so badly, at one of the block opposite my school. 7 floor. If i could just jump down of the building, i wish i could die then. But, i don't want to, cause i wanna be with him still. But now, things has changed. He won't msg me again, now was all i msg him. He won't replied. I was so sad. Worned Out. I need him badly. If he know how i feel.

Totally Worned Out.
Death Upon Me.
Slashing Wrist all the time.
Wish i could just Die now!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006

Having Maths Paper 1 today. It was like So hard to do. Gonna fail my N level! Doing halfway don't feel like doing it. Daydreaming. Staring into blank space. After exams, went with My dear, Hafidah they all buy ciggs. Went to eat too as i was kinda Hungry. After eating, Went to meet Whitney and the rest. They were sitting under the block next to our school playing True Or Dare. Lols. After met them, asked me to play. So joined them play awhile. Was like so Funny lahs. Keep kena Yvonne. I kena one time, chosen True. And they asked, the furthest my bf and i do was what! Wth lahs. Lols. I shouldn't say the answer over here. Lols. Played till around 30 mins Then we went Icon Minimart to buy things to eat. Mei Hong bought Candles, so we played with Candles. It was fun. Think almost 1 year we Sisters din't gather together and had fun. But left Hafidah wasn't with us. After that, i went to meet my baby! I miss him so much now. Around 4+, went home. Now i'm at home. Blogging, Chatting with Friends. So bored at home. Nothing to do. Sigh. Guess i've nothing much to say. Shall blog till here. Will blog again.

I'm Missing You Badly, Darling-


Meet The School Girls!

Whit ; Star * Bestie<3

Monday, October 02, 2006

Went school for English Paper 1 and 2 and Technical Studies. Paper 2 was kinda hard. But i did managed to complete everything. Technical Studies was quite hard! Just anyhow do. Hahas. But hope i can pass every of my exams. So tiring today, Din't sleep much. Maybe because i'm not used the time i always sleep for school. Always sleeps around 8plus in the morning. So it's abit hard to sleep early. Today, went out, met WeiBin. Sooner or later, Met whitney*Bestie, and her bf*Alex. Went Mr.Prata to eat. About 6.40pm, Alex had to go back to camp. Ate till damn late. After that, WeiBin went home cause he wanna bet on Soccer. Wasting money! So left Whitney and Me stone-ing at Mr.Prata. We were so bored. So whitney decided to call GuanWei come, So i called him. After that HanWen came along too. Went 814 to meet LiTian. I was like So so Bored! Dying of Boredom. And that WenWen kept Disturbing me like crazy lah. Angry! Stupid Idiotic. =x Not going to post so much. Gonna study alittle and Sleep! Will blog again when i'm free. TakeCares Peeps(:

I Love You, Baby.<3

Saturday, September 23, 2006

!!!!!!!!

I SERIOUSLY FEEL LIKE HATING YOU NOW! BUT I CAN'T. WHY? ALL THIS TORMENTS I'M GOING THROUGH ARE DRIVING ME CRAZY! AND YOU? CAN BE IN CLASS SO HAPPILY? WRITE TESTI FOR OTHER GIRLS SO EASILY, YET FOR ME. LIKE HAVING DIFFICULTIES. I JUST WANTS TO KNOW NOW, WHETHER DO YOU STILL LOVE ME OR DOESN'T ANYMORE? IF YOU DON'T, I'LL LEAVE YOU ALONE!

FALLEN APART):

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

hatred!

I SERIOUSLY HATE THE WAY YOU TREATED ME. CAUSING ME DOING ALL THIS SILLY STUFFS. COMMITTING SUICIDE AND EVERYTHING.

CAN YOU SEE HOW MUCH DID I SACRIFICE, EVEN GIVING UP MY LIFE. I DON'T THINK YOU CAN FEEL HOW MISERABLE I FEEL!

TEARS AND TEARS
DROPS OF BLOODS
WHAT'S NEXT? DEATH?
T.T

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Pictures.











Those Happy Times We Were Together. Hope It Will Last.

I LOVE YOU, DEAR<3

How do i live without you?

Din't went school today. Don't feel like going to school due to some reason.

Hais, Sometimes i feel should i just give up on this relationship? I'm feeling very miserable and tired of this relationship. Things has keep repeating the same things. Why can't those things just stop and we can be happy together? Do you think always i wants to quarrel with you? Because i told you those girls i dislike you to msg with but i guess you still wants to msg them. You kept telling me that you never msg her anymore. I know you still did. Maybe behind my back, i won't even know. Not i don't want to trust you, this thing makes me don't trust you do you know that? Guess you won't know because you won't come to my blog and see what i've written. I really love you alot, but this few days, why you keep avoiding me like this? Because of what? i totally lost! I feel like committing suicide. Really feel like dying. Really am i. ):

Monday, September 04, 2006

Tears is what i get back in return!

I don't UNDERSTAND why are you treating me so WEIRDLY now? You LOVE me no MORE? Someone Please tell me what am i gonna do! I'm SO lost WITHOUT you! Tell Me Pls!, Someone. Whose gonna be right there for me when i'm down? I'm feeling so paranoid. Not knowing what to do! Been crying all for you. And what did i get back from you? Sadness is what i get back in return. :'(

Am i surpose to get TREATED this way? Why should i deserve all this nonsense?
Because i've fallen so DEEPLY for you? TEARS-

Friday, August 18, 2006

Thoughts.

Today same, went to school at 9.30 for CPA Prelim and ends at 11. Quite hard, but still manage to finish it in time. Today going to buy new phone. Yay! Love my mom. <3

Went to see Whitney's blog just now. I shed a tear when i saw she wrote a little note for me. I really did shed a tear. At first, i din't realised that she's writing to me, thought she writing about other people and i happen to see my name.

Whitney, i really regret last time didn't treasure much about our sistership. I put you into so much torments that you going through last time. Because of my stupidness for a boy, i led you into such a sadness and pain road. I shouldn't had let go of such a nice friend to a guy i shouldn't had. Sister for 4 years, i still chosen the guy. It was all my stupidness. Let bygones be bygones. Sorry for causing you so much pain. I know you do still feel upset over some thing which i should know when i reading through your blog. You can always find and talk to me. You lent me once your listening ear, i can lend you mine too. I'll always be there for you bestie. I can see you startng to overcome all your sadness and grown to smile often. I know sometimes you in school is just acting to be happy. Sometimes i'm like that too. But i'm not feeling good myself. Because of some relationship problem. I wants you to be like last time Whitney. Joyful and Cheerful alright. You look much prettier when you put on a smile.(: We can overcome this together. I'll always be there for you, even if you don't, i will still always be there. Loved.

Wednesday, August 16, 2006

Sadness.

I Really Need You By My Side. Really Do. Without You, My Life Seems Meaningless To Me.
Crying All Night Long.


I'm Going Crazy Alone In A Daze.
Tears.
The Pain is Killing Me.

Tuesday, August 15, 2006

Cries.

Got home after my D&T prelim exam paper. So hard to do. Drawing here and there. Starring blankly at the paper. Throat damn pain, no mood to do the paper either. Section B and C don't know how to do. Guess i'm failing this paper already. No confident in this paper. Even english paper.

Are we drifting apart? I hope not. I miss you so much. Guess i need you more then you need me now. Maybe because you're the only one i wants to spend with now. I wish i could be with you wherever you go. )):
Sacrifice For Love?
I Miss You Day And Night, Seems Like You're Still Here.
I Need You Here With Me.
-Suffering In Silence-

Monday, August 14, 2006

Sweet Couple.

;<3Lovely Couple*-








A Public Affair.





Saturday, Went with My Dear, Wei Xian, Justin, Alistair, Aaron and Justin to watch fireworks at Esplanade. It was France. we was late for the Fireworks! But at least we get to see some of the fireworks. Not bad only. I captured some of the photos. Hahs. After see-ing fireworks, head to Marina Square to check out on movies. But it was kinda late, so we went back to Tampines Mall watched See No Evil. It was like damn scary lahs. For me lahs. Lols. I don't even dare to see. Kept covering with Justin's jacket as i'm too afraid! After the movie, slacked awhile then go home already. And forgoodness sake, i can't sleep for the 2 days cause of that bloody show! Kept thinking about the big size monster WWE kate? (not sure his name), like he's going to chase me or something? Lols.

Sunday, Woke up at around 3+. Hao asked me out cause he's bored at home! So met him at 5.45. Took bus to Tamp Mac waiting for Ying to come. I was feeling damn sick. Sore throat is killing me. Bought some herbal drink and Strepsils? So bitter can the drink! 3 of us were damn bored. Went to play arcade. The touch screen thingy, then shop here and there. Walk until our legs going to rot. After that, went to meet my dear at Safra, he's playing dota with Nelson they all. Me and him damn cold towards each other? Like as if we're friends. Din't talk much to each other. I've no idea why. I had those kind of feelings that he's going to dump me soon. But i asked him, he said he just don't like himself? Saying he feels awkward when he speaks to me. I feel damn sad. Cried while msging him. I'm really feel sad when he tolds me that. Breaks my heart. I got that feeling that he doesn't loves me anymore. I really hope we won't quarrel again or what already.

Monday, Went school for English Prelim, Paper 1 and 2. Paper 1 was damn hard lahs. Think i'm going to fail my paper 1. Paper 2 alrights. After exam, Went to buy ciggs with my classmates. After that played Basketball together with them. Kind of bored so joined them. Hahas. Damn funny lah! Stupid nelson keep spitting on the floor. Then the bball kena his damn saliva. So yucks lah! eeeyer. LOLS. hmms, going to rest now. So tired. Blog again. Here's some pictures of the fireworks. ((:






Saturday, August 12, 2006

Pictures.

My Lovely Sweet Sixteen Birthday Cake.


My Daily Drink. ' Pink Dolphin ' .

Sick.

SICK SICK SICK.
Having flu and sore throat now. Guess is because of my bf. Passed to me his sickness. Argh! Hate being sick. Damn miserable. hmms, Neverminds. Today, Going to Esplanade Again. I must watch the Fireworks today! Missed it on Thursday. )): Lols. Yesterday went to eat Swensens. Ate Ice-cream. Can't eat much cause ate lunch already. So full. After awhile, Wei xian came and look for me. I asked him to help me finish up my Ice Cream cause it's kinda alot lah! Ask him eat, keep pai seh say he full already. Don't want eat. After we out of Swensen and started to complaint Hungry Hungry. Faster go Long John! Lols. ROARS. After awhile, My dear came to meet me and Wei xian. He looked damn tired due to Soccer Training. Idiot him. Lols. Went safra play Dota. So funny can. Kept making me laugh. Lols. That's all for Today. Will blog again. ((:
I Love You, Darren* Don't doubt my Love for you.



-Angel Hazel-

Friday, August 11, 2006

You Pick Me When I Was Down.

r -Mr Victim ; Miss Murder-r
<3*sweetcouple*<3
r-Tired;Drop Dead- r
r*My Heart Beats For You.r

Got home after school. It was a tiring day.
I just can't figure it out, what has happen to our relationship? Does he still Loves me? Find him weird somehow. Got the kind of feeling too. Hope he didn't lie or hurt me.
Not sleeping well this past 2 days. Didn't get enough sleep. Staying out for 2 nights. ROARS! Din't get to see Fireworks sia! Reach Esplanade too late i guess? Tomorrow will be going again. Don't wanna miss it.There were Darren, Justin, Wei Xian, Khor Nee and Yvonne. We sitting near spotlight. Saw Whitney. She so action lah! lols. Then i went up to her. Saying hi and chat with her awhile. After that we took Mrt heading to Esplanade already. Stood outside Esplanade for don't know what reason also. And i'm having moodswing. No mood to talk. I think i'm just jealous about something or ? i don't know what happen to me also. Just got no mood to talk. Nevermind about it. After eating Long John Silver, we headed down to Katong. Played Pool and Dota. I was damn tired and i can fall asleep anytime on the roadside. So tired lah! They play till 9+ am in the morning! Oh gosh, Drop dead! After that, Wei xian's father came and fetched us home. Uhms, I'm going to rest now. Take Cares Friends. ((:

Sunday, August 06, 2006

All My Life;<3*

I will never find another lover sweeter than you,
Sweeter than you
And I will never find another lover more precious than you
More precious than you
Girl you are
Close to me you're like my mother
Close to me you're like my father
Close to me you're like my sister
Close to me you're like my brother
You are the only one my everything and for you this song I sing

And all my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

I said you're all that I'm thinkin' of.....baby

Said, I promise to never fall in love with a stranger
You're all I'm thinkin' of, I praise the Lord above
For sending me your love, I cherish every hug
I really love you

And all my life, baby, baby, I've prayed for someone like you,
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you, baby
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes, I pray that you do love me

You're all that I ever known
When you smile, on my face, all I see is a glow
You turned my life around
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
You're all that I ever known
When you smile on your face all I see is a glow
You picked me up when I was down
And I hope that you feel the same way too
Yes I pray that you do love me too

All my life
I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
And I thank God that I, that I finally found you
All my life I've prayed for someone like you
Yes, I pray that you do love me too

Thursday, August 03, 2006

Do You Notice, I'm Gone?

Since i'm kind of bored now, i shall blog. it's 11.22pm already. Going to sleep soon, due to having school tomorrow. Don't feel like going to school. So bored and tiring. On wednesday, didn't go to school cause the period sucks. 3 periods of English. Oh my, neverminds. So, my dear came to meet me in the morning 9+. Then we went to Tampines Mall meet Hafidah and Haslinda. We planned to catch a movie. We watched The Lake House, since i've been craving for that show since the day it's out. So we went to watch it. The show was damn nice. One word ; Awesome! Really. Hahas, some part were funny. The dog was like so cute! Ppl, go and watch! Real nice. Lols. Today was a tiring day. We had quarrelled i guess, don't know why we quarrelled too. Sigh. And I cried. Wanted to meet khor nee, then i called her, acting that i'm not crying. But she asked, why you cry? I kept denying. And she said i can hear through your voice. I just kept saying i din't. After awhile, we're okay already. I don't wish to quarrel with him. Hais. Neverminds then. Heading to bed now, kinda tired already. Nights People. Will blog again.


Love Me, Pamper Me, Adore Me

Thursday, July 27, 2006

I'm Not The Kind Of Girl, That You Could Let Down.

Got home after school. Was damn tired. Slept for about 3 hours due to working till 1.30am plus in the morning. Now, i'm feeling much better now. On monday, i was damn paranoid! I slashed my wrist cause of some problems. So stress. Real tired. Felt like as if i'm dying soon. Why are there obsticles in our relationship? How i wish there are no obsticles going through our relationship. I cried badly to wei xian on the phone. Lying on the bed, cried and cried, slashing my wrist. So much tormented i'm going through. Really wish to be Happy. Arghs! Sometimes, Things aren't going my way. Wish it could. Sigh.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

;;Lovely<3*

Hmms, i'm here to blog again since i'm bored like a bee. lols. Went to eat with my sis, Lynn and my mom at my working place. It was absolutely delicious. Order quite lots of dishes. Just to try those food i'm craving for so long at my work place. So i asked them to eat over there. First, we ordered Speciality Chicken Wings. It's Yummy! Ate Crayfish Spag. Mum ate Crayfish Horfun and sis ate Chapel Traditional Stew. It was cool! Drinks i ordered were Strawberry Soda and Ice Chocolate Milk! My favourite. =x hahas. Uhms, started to eat! After that was my dessert! So nice lah! After eating, my mom and sis went home, and i headed to meet my dear. Accompany him to cut his hair. His hair was like so cute now! So adorable~ lols. Abdul came with us too. After that ate with his parents again. I don't feel like eating but he forced me to! We ate Nasi Briyani. I ate some and stop eating. So full till i felt like vomiting. Lols. Well, after eating, went to chill at some void deck near darren's house. And after that he send me home by cab~ That's all for today. Here's the photo of the dessert i took. ((:

It was nice~ =D

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

A Shoulder To Cry On.

I'm crying badly yesterday night. Today went to school, halfway early depart. Can't stay on in school anymore. Having sore throat and fever. Went home, kept thinking of him. I suddenly miss him alot. Slept awhile and woke up at 2plus. See my phone, din't even have 1 of his msg. I was like damn sad. And i msged him. " Hais. Din't even bother just to msg me one time. " He took about 20mins to reply and said " I'm sorry, got alot of prob.. I'm in r and r now. sorry. " Then i replied him say Neverminds then. Hais. Seems like i'm lag of his love now. I kept thinking that he still likes another girl. I wants to trust and believe every word he says. But somethings happen to stop me from doing that. Ytd, we had quite a bad quarrel, kept ignoring him till we walk to the bus stop. Cause i might burst into tears when he talks to me. And i can't endure and i cried in the bus. I was trying to tell myself stop crying. Reached home and had a big cry! my mother came and asked me, what happen? and i just refused to say anything. Still msging him, he told me. " If you don't trust this relationship, then you should break up with me, cause i really hate to see you upset,mad or crying.." and i replied and said " I wish i could break off with you, But i just can't bear to do so do you know that? Cause I love you alot and i don't wanna lose you. And i cried while typing the msg. And i was thinking whether to go school or not, but in the end, i went school just to see him. but i just feel kind of weird. No idea why also. I hope we really won't quarrel again. Really wish that could happen. I really Loves him alot. Love him more then myself. Hope he Love me like how i Love him too.
* Fixing A Broken Heart -

Monday, June 12, 2006

Quite a fun day`

Uhms, went out with hao today. I was like rotting at home, doing nothing. So bored like a bee! hahas. Actually meeting Ying, but she suddenly feels tired, so don't wanna meet ler. So meet hao. Asked him accompany me to 201 buy cigg. After that we went to Mr.Prata and eat. We ate the same thing. Maggie Prata and Teh Cino Ice. hahas. So funny. Then after that, Hao's friend came. Geraldine and Gracious i think. Don't really know them well. After eating, is about 1+ already. So we went back to nearby our house there meet Kim and Johnny. We went to catch froggies. It was like so scary lahs. Only me and hao at there. Somemore they roar like some big gianatic monster! hahas. We caught damn alot of froggies. I help hao find container, so we could put them in cause i don't dare catch. So yucks! He caught 7 quite big frog and 2 baby frog. The baby frog is like SO cute. But i'm scared to touch them. haha! Then went to his house, put them into a pot. lols! so scary lah! Hao wanted to put one frog on my leg. ROARS~ He's a mongxiong! hahas. Sian! Working full time this week. ROARS~ lols. uhms, That's all for now. There're some pics we took of the froggies.





They Are Cute, But Kinda Scary~ =D