Thursday, July 27, 2006

I'm Not The Kind Of Girl, That You Could Let Down.

Got home after school. Was damn tired. Slept for about 3 hours due to working till 1.30am plus in the morning. Now, i'm feeling much better now. On monday, i was damn paranoid! I slashed my wrist cause of some problems. So stress. Real tired. Felt like as if i'm dying soon. Why are there obsticles in our relationship? How i wish there are no obsticles going through our relationship. I cried badly to wei xian on the phone. Lying on the bed, cried and cried, slashing my wrist. So much tormented i'm going through. Really wish to be Happy. Arghs! Sometimes, Things aren't going my way. Wish it could. Sigh.

Thursday, July 13, 2006

;;Lovely<3*

Hmms, i'm here to blog again since i'm bored like a bee. lols. Went to eat with my sis, Lynn and my mom at my working place. It was absolutely delicious. Order quite lots of dishes. Just to try those food i'm craving for so long at my work place. So i asked them to eat over there. First, we ordered Speciality Chicken Wings. It's Yummy! Ate Crayfish Spag. Mum ate Crayfish Horfun and sis ate Chapel Traditional Stew. It was cool! Drinks i ordered were Strawberry Soda and Ice Chocolate Milk! My favourite. =x hahas. Uhms, started to eat! After that was my dessert! So nice lah! After eating, my mom and sis went home, and i headed to meet my dear. Accompany him to cut his hair. His hair was like so cute now! So adorable~ lols. Abdul came with us too. After that ate with his parents again. I don't feel like eating but he forced me to! We ate Nasi Briyani. I ate some and stop eating. So full till i felt like vomiting. Lols. Well, after eating, went to chill at some void deck near darren's house. And after that he send me home by cab~ That's all for today. Here's the photo of the dessert i took. ((:

It was nice~ =D

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

A Shoulder To Cry On.

I'm crying badly yesterday night. Today went to school, halfway early depart. Can't stay on in school anymore. Having sore throat and fever. Went home, kept thinking of him. I suddenly miss him alot. Slept awhile and woke up at 2plus. See my phone, din't even have 1 of his msg. I was like damn sad. And i msged him. " Hais. Din't even bother just to msg me one time. " He took about 20mins to reply and said " I'm sorry, got alot of prob.. I'm in r and r now. sorry. " Then i replied him say Neverminds then. Hais. Seems like i'm lag of his love now. I kept thinking that he still likes another girl. I wants to trust and believe every word he says. But somethings happen to stop me from doing that. Ytd, we had quite a bad quarrel, kept ignoring him till we walk to the bus stop. Cause i might burst into tears when he talks to me. And i can't endure and i cried in the bus. I was trying to tell myself stop crying. Reached home and had a big cry! my mother came and asked me, what happen? and i just refused to say anything. Still msging him, he told me. " If you don't trust this relationship, then you should break up with me, cause i really hate to see you upset,mad or crying.." and i replied and said " I wish i could break off with you, But i just can't bear to do so do you know that? Cause I love you alot and i don't wanna lose you. And i cried while typing the msg. And i was thinking whether to go school or not, but in the end, i went school just to see him. but i just feel kind of weird. No idea why also. I hope we really won't quarrel again. Really wish that could happen. I really Loves him alot. Love him more then myself. Hope he Love me like how i Love him too.
* Fixing A Broken Heart -