Emotional Breakdown.
I can't stand it any longer.
I seriously don't know what should i do to make you mine?
Why are you ignoring me times and times again?
What did i do to make you feel this way?
Why should i be treated like this?

No appetite

Ate pills

Drank cough syrup

Slit my wrist

Smoking

Today is our 6 Months Anniversary. (:

Although on Sat, we did quarrel abit but at last, okay already. So around 10+ i went to meet MyBaby, Justin and Nelson at Safra. They were playing Dota. After that, we chill at my dear's house playground there. While we walking back, i told him left 15 more mins to our 6 months. Till we reached the playground. We suddenly talk about my dear's nanny. I was laughing non-stop luh. It's really damn funny. Everyone was laughing. So okay. I was sitting at the see-saw. Suddenly, my dear walked towards me and gave me a kiss and say Happy half year anniversary! I was shocked but of course happy luh. Hahas. Okays, after that Nelson went home, awhile later Justin went home too. Left me and my dear. I told him i was hungry. And it was around 12+ am, i don't wanna eat at coffeeshop. So we head to eat at Mc Donald's. We ate happily, smiling smiling all. Hahas. After we ate, he brought me to Pasir Ris Park at around 1am. Although it was quite a Not nice place but Romantic. We sat at the Rock. Only him and me. We were so happily chatting. I love him cuddling me. =X he say was kinda bored, so asked me to on some songs. After that he say, Let's dance. asked me to stand. Lols. So he teached me how to dance. Not those techno or r&b dance. Was the romantic dance. hahas. i was like kinda scared. Scared got people see, i'll shy. Lols! This was the first time he asked me to dance with him. After awhile, i on Buttons by PCD, he loves to dance that song. Hahaha! It was hot and cute when he dance that. So funny! I spent a Wonderful Night with him. Was feeling really happy! Later gonna meet him too cause it's still our anniversary.<3

He says I'm His Little Princess. (:

Dear, Happy 6 months Anniversary!

I, Star Chen Zi Yun Love Darren Frederick Pereira Till Aged<3

I Want Both Of This So Much!

I was damn totally sick ytd. Slept around 1+ midnight, and woke up early 10 in the morning. Had a bad headache. My head real hurts. So i rest till 1+ pm, woke up and vomit. Feeling damn horrible. So my sis took medicine for me, but i can't swallow tablets, so she got to beat into pieces for me. So bitter and i vomit everything out again. Nevermind, went to rest till 6+ in the evening. Was feeling much better already. So i get up changed, everything went to meet my hubby. Kept thinking of him everyday. I miss him so so much. Went safra with Nelson, Joel, Justin too. Played Dota. After that, went back to his house awhile. Waiting for Joel to come and we went downstairs to drink. After that Whitney came to meet us too. I miss her so sudden. =x Alright, Drank Absolut Raspberri and Chievas. Hahas. Won't write much how we drink or what. Lols. After that, Whit went to meet *erherm* and i took cab home. Okay, That's all. Will blog again when i'm free(:

4 More Days To Our 6th Month Anniversary. <3

I Love Him More And More Each Day.

Truly Yours,

StarChen.

I miss him badly, even though i get to see him everyday. Missing him every min every sec. How i wish he could be right by my side always.

I'm so deeply in love with you;<3

I was so confused. He's treating me the best, and now problem and problems again. Making me angry and sad again. All he want from me was trust, i know. I gave him my trust already. Didn't kept mentioning about that girl's name. Now was another girl. On tuesday, suppose to meet to go BumbleBee. Met all of them at Century. Didn't know Darren went to meet someone else first i guess? This was what i think. I went to see his friendster acct, a girl wrote testi for him and said, Darren, Sorry about yest, i didn't did that on purpose. Are you angry or pissed off. Can see it from your look yest. blah blah blah. What are your point of views? When i read it, my mind was in a lost. Feeling angry, annoyed, sad.

I want to know who did he meet her with and meet her for what? I just want the truth from him! Hope he'll tell me the truth himself.

Won't blog much. Moodless. Woke up 10+ in the morning. Can't get back to sleep. Fuck it! Real Pissed Off for what he did.

Problematic!

Photos(:

Your Stories, My Alibis

Thanks For Giving Me Chances

Hold My Hands, And Never Let Me Go

Kiss My Lips, And Take My Breath Away

Retro

The Love That I'll Prove To You(:

-W and S ; Bestie*

Say My Name : Star

Hellooo, woke up by Justin around 2+pm. Saying he was bored working. Nothing to do. Damn mean. I thought what happen. Bastard. Now i can't get back to sleep. Nevermind. Chatted with my friends. So kinda bored today. Later going BumbleBee with my Classmates and Friends. WooHoo~ Hahas. Hope it will be fun later!((x

I Miss You, Darling* (:

Saturday, Went drinking with Whit. Wanna drink and Forgets Everything in our mind. Just broke off with my bf last Thursday. I was sad like hell. We drank till drunk at Fisherman Village. I'm so drop dead at that time, can't really stand up too. Whitney can't even walk properly to the ladies. So i tried my best to walk properly to the toilet after that we went out to drink again. After drinking the very last mug, i was damn drunk, so was Whitney. I lied on the table. Didn't know that Whitney called Darren to come and pick me up. We've broken up, but in the end, he heard about i was drunk, he rush down to fisherman to fetch me home. But i can't go home like this cause mother will scold, so went to his place and sleep. When alight his house downstairs, i vomit everything lahs. After that, he helped me to his room, and i slept his whole bed till he sleep at his sofa. but after awhile, we patched back. I'm like the happiest girl in the world. Lols. Although it's abit lose face to ask for break and patch, but i don't mind at all. I won't even bother how people think cause i love him too much till i can sacrifice anything for him. Even anything to change for him.

To Dear*Darren, if he happen to read it. But i know he won't.
Thanks for taking care of me even though we broke off but we're together now. I was so happy when you came to bring me home when i was drunk at FishermanV. Didn't know you would come cause it's already midnight. And I'm really very very happy at that time when you agreed to be mine again<3*
He's the Guy that i Love and Miss most(:

To Whitney*Bestie,
Thanks for congrating me(: Although he and me have just patched up, but we still do have some conflicts between us. But i know we'll solve it together. Bestie, Look on the bright side okay? Don't make me worry. I know you're still sad over that guy. But from the day you know he's not worth your everything. But you and him are very sweet couple. So loving everytime when i see both of you together. You know who i'm refering to uh? So cheer up kay? Always ask me be strong and all, You must be Strong too okay!? Anything, just ring me up. I'll be there for you! Take Cares alright! Actually, i miss you. =x Don't know why also. Out of a sudden miss you. Love<3

Thanks For Giving Me Chances And Chances Again.

Thank You For Your Love.

I Promise(:

Come Back To Me Please! Will You! Without You, Things has changed, Don't feel like doing anything. Locked myself in the room for whole day. Didn't eat for today. No appetite.
How i wish you would talk to me. How i wish you would patch with me, ask me out now. I'll be the happiest girl ever. But, this are all my wishful thinking. It won't happen again, I know. I Just want you to be mine again. I regretted. Out of my anger and sadness, i just broke off with him. I cried so badly, at one of the block opposite my school. 7 floor. If i could just jump down of the building, i wish i could die then. But, i don't want to, cause i wanna be with him still. But now, things has changed. He won't msg me again, now was all i msg him. He won't replied. I was so sad. Worned Out. I need him badly. If he know how i feel.

Totally Worned Out.

Death Upon Me.

Slashing Wrist all the time.

Wish i could just Die now!

Having Maths Paper 1 today. It was like So hard to do. Gonna fail my N level! Doing halfway don't feel like doing it. Daydreaming. Staring into blank space. After exams, went with My dear, Hafidah they all buy ciggs. Went to eat too as i was kinda Hungry. After eating, Went to meet Whitney and the rest. They were sitting under the block next to our school playing True Or Dare. Lols. After met them, asked me to play. So joined them play awhile. Was like so Funny lahs. Keep kena Yvonne. I kena one time, chosen True. And they asked, the furthest my bf and i do was what! Wth lahs. Lols. I shouldn't say the answer over here. Lols. Played till around 30 mins Then we went Icon Minimart to buy things to eat. Mei Hong bought Candles, so we played with Candles. It was fun. Think almost 1 year we Sisters din't gather together and had fun. But left Hafidah wasn't with us. After that, i went to meet my baby! I miss him so much now. Around 4+, went home. Now i'm at home. Blogging, Chatting with Friends. So bored at home. Nothing to do. Sigh. Guess i've nothing much to say. Shall blog till here. Will blog again.

I'm Missing You Badly, Darling-

Meet The School Girls!

Whit ; Star * Bestie<3

Went school for English Paper 1 and 2 and Technical Studies. Paper 2 was kinda hard. But i did managed to complete everything. Technical Studies was quite hard! Just anyhow do. Hahas. But hope i can pass every of my exams. So tiring today, Din't sleep much. Maybe because i'm not used the time i always sleep for school. Always sleeps around 8plus in the morning. So it's abit hard to sleep early. Today, went out, met WeiBin. Sooner or later, Met whitney*Bestie, and her bf*Alex. Went Mr.Prata to eat. About 6.40pm, Alex had to go back to camp. Ate till damn late. After that, WeiBin went home cause he wanna bet on Soccer. Wasting money! So left Whitney and Me stone-ing at Mr.Prata. We were so bored. So whitney decided to call GuanWei come, So i called him. After that HanWen came along too. Went 814 to meet LiTian. I was like So so Bored! Dying of Boredom. And that WenWen kept Disturbing me like crazy lah. Angry! Stupid Idiotic. =x Not going to post so much. Gonna study alittle and Sleep! Will blog again when i'm free. TakeCares Peeps(:

I Love You, Baby.<3