I'm feeling rather moody.
If we had never met each other in the first place, none of this would happened..
You won't feel fucked up. You won't feel you're such a failure, hopeless or whatsoever..
Do you think that i'll feel good to see you in this situation?
I don't feel good either.

P.S ; Thanks for the bouquet of flower. I really appreciated it.

What should i do to stop all this feelings inside me?

Here's another emo post.
Well done, Star.

I was happy to be the one...

i keep looking at only you
even though there's someone else by your side
like always, only you in my eyes
my heart is filled with only you

once in a while, when you give me a passing smile
i think about that smile the whole day
do you get it?
if your girl was me, if my love was you

i want to love
i want to have you
even though i can't say the words that i prepared all night
you're the only one for me
the one who makes me cry
the one person who makes my heart flutter
it's okay if it hurts
even if i can't have you
i'll stay beside you
and live cherishing only you
it's okay because i love you..
if i can just see you..

because the tears, the tears overflow
because i'm starting to hate you who left me
i'm crying again today, crying because i hate you
even though i swallow, swallow
the tears wash away my makeup
what do you want me to do? it ended

if i cry some more to exhaustion and fall asleep, will i forget?
i try to erase, erase all the memories of you
but you're still the same.
it's hard to walk away one step..

what do you like so much about your girl
that you're always laughing when you see her
i guess i'm a helpless girl
i'm so jealous of her

i want to love
i want to have you
even though i can't say the words that i prepared all night
you're the only one for me
the one who makes me cry
the one person who makes my heart flutter
it's okay if it hurts
even if i can't have you
i'll stay beside you
and live cherishing only you
it's okay because i love you..
if i can just see you..


even though i promise not to,
my eyes look to only you
my heart has gone crazy
it looks only for you
even though i shouldn't fall in love with you

come back to me
if you hold me, i make this one request
coming back.....

it's you, only you
no matter how much i wish it
it probably won't make a difference
i want to go back. i'll let you go
that girl is really lovable

it's okay if it hurts
even if i can't have you
i'll stay behind you
and live cherishing only you
thank you, even though you're not my love
because i'll still be able to see you

I just need this as a platform to rant for now.
I'm feeling vexed, mixed of feelings.

I really don't know what to do or say.
Sometimes i should use my heart and feel.
I don't wanna hurt anyone. I don't wanna feel guilty.
I don't wanna live in regret.
I admit, i'm really afraid of falling in love again.

Peace is what i need now..

Sigh..

I didn't wanna let anyone knows what i am going through.

I guess i'll not blog as often.

p.s ; I'm Sorry..

I only wanted someone beside me
Someone to talk to, someone to guide me.

Perplexed feelings.
Sometimes i don't know what i really want.
Sometimes i don't understand myself why am i doing all this to make myself miserable.
Sometimes i find myself silly, over-sensitive, paranoid.
Sometimes i'm wondering why others can be strong. But why can't I?
I told myself to be stronger than before.
But still, i'm falling way back down over & over again..

Sometimes, it's weird to even think about it.

I wonder how people thinks =/

I can't be strong anymore.
How i wish someone will be there for me when i need someone..

I just know CHERISH is the word.
Learnt my lesson now.

不管未來你會在哪里
我都不會忘記 我愛你

你是我微笑的原因。

A pretty simple day out with Bestie. (:

Caught Marley & Me for movie.

Was craving for Starbucks chocolate ice blended while waiting for the movie,

so went Starbucks to get it right away!

MAKKKK~ I'm addicted to it now la sia!

Aaaaa-everyday-must-have-thingie :x

After our movie, we headed down to Bedok to look for Hua and the rest.

x_x, i look fat here eh. Somehow i guess its because i tucked in. And here we goes, the B's started to camwhore :x I'll be there for you through it all. *Notice our top, we were wearing the same :x* Thanks to AH HUA ar. Our head were cut off. -.-

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness

They say there's a smile waiting on the other side of sadness
What awaits us when we arrive there?

When I started on this journey on that far away summer day
It was supposed to be to chase my dreams, not to run away

If I could only see tomorrow, there'd be no more sighs
Like a boat struggling against the flow
Right now I've got to keep going

They say happiness awaits at the end of pain
I'm still searching for an out-of-season sunflower

With my hands balled into fists, I wait for the dawn
With red fingernail marks and shining tears falling

If I've become used to the loneliness, I'll use the moonlight
And fly with featherless wings
I've got to keep going further

If the rain clouds have parted, the wet road will be shining
Only the darkness can teach us
About the strong, strong light
I've got to keep going stronger

Phobia

The pain is aching all over my body.
I'm traumatized by the accident experience.
Never will i forget this and it will definitely follows me through my entire life.


I thought i would be dead at that very moment.
Count myself lucky.

I Don't Want You Back

I dont know why I liked you so much
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
You put me through pain, I wanna let you know how I feel.

Now it's over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, because I once loved you.

Everything ended well.
I'm sick and tired of trying to salvage this..
Ended up, i gained nothing but hurt.
I tried to give you the best that i can but nothing that I do, is felt by you.
Sometimes i'm wondering which word that you said is true, or just for the sake of saying to please me?
What had i done wrong that am deserving all this shit?
Why did you had to make my life miserable times & times again? Had you ever tried putting yourself in my shoes and spared a thought for me?
I thought i could forget about you when times goes by but i was so wrong. All i could blame myself for being naive, stupid, softhearted..
I had been keeping myself busy, so i wouldn't have that
empty space for me to let my thoughts run wild..


"What's the point in ever trying to be happy when the very pursuit of happiness is what makes you miserable."

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For you, I will

Thank you for being there whenever i needed someone.
Thank you for being my listening ear, your shoulder to lean on.
Though i'm not good at words but i just wanna say Thank you, Bestie!
I'll always be there for you as your bestie, to carry you over the rocky roads and lead you through the tunnels. To share with you the smiles, the tears, every single thing!
Whenever you need me, i'll be there!
Even if i can't make it, i'll try my best to be there!

Bestie, you must be very tired now.
Every night you were there to accompany me at my granny's wake till morning.
I hope you'll take a good rest and drink plenty of water (:

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Caught this midnight movie with Bestie.

This movie shows the inner workings of women (and men) all over the board. There will be times when you get angry at the women and men for what they do and how it relates to real life situations. Its worth it to go see it for sure.