Merry Christmas to Everyone! Ytd, went out with my Whit. Hahas. We went Fisherman Village for drinking. Hahas. It was kinda bored but fun. Saw Wei bin and his friends over there and we sit down awhile and talk to him. Hahas. he's funny bufalo. =x After then, whit went to find her friend at the another side of fisherman, hahas. so we went to join them. Sooner later, Guan wei came. We were like bored. Hahas. Overall, it's fun. Anyway, going out to enjoy myself later. Hahas. Tata's. That's all for now. I Love You, Bestie! Always been there for me. Thanks Guys. (: <3


Lies after Lies, Now i know. Fcuk you, Bastard! You're out of my beautiful life. You ruined it. Thanks to you. Damn it.

A song that dedicated to me by someone.

When I see your smile,
tears roll down my face,
I can't replace.

And now that I'm strong I have figured out
how this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul,
and I know ill find deep inside me, I can be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Seasons are changing and waves are crashing
and stars are falling all for us
days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever.
I'll be there for you through it all,
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Cause you're my
you're my
my true love
my whole heart
please don't throw that away.

Cause I'm here, for you
please don't walk away and
please tell me you'll stay, stay...

Use me as you will
pull my strings just for a thrill
and I know ill be okay
though my skies are turning gray.

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up for you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Staying home for the whole day. Stone-ing at home.
Sigh, ytd was a tearing day for me. Cry for whole night. Eyes are swollen like a fish.
I'm really Sorry for those harsh words i said to you. Because i was angry, i said those things. Now i'm all alone. He need times to cool down. This time, i really made him real pissed off. I didn't mean to do that. I hope he's feelings won't fade for me. I miss him so so much. I guess i've fallen real deeply in this relationship. I don't wanna this to end. I know i should have gone home when you asked me to. But i didn't, cause i wanna talk things out with you. I feel that you're really avoiding me. I really don't know what else to do. All i can do now is saying Sorry to you. Will you give me one more chance? I'm really really very Sorry. I need you in my life):

If ever you're in my arms again, this time i'll love you much better.

Uhms, been quite a long time since i blog. Guess my blog has dead. No time to blog either. Always been out till damn late. Ton over night. Ytd, went to chill and drink only. I was kinda drunk lah i guess. After that, went to my bf's house and stay. Around night time, Athalie and Deqing came to his house and find him. After awhile, slack at his house downstairs and i took cab back home with Athalie. Came home, bathe and everything, use com played Audition. Help justin to edit his damn photos. So troublesome and choosy. Damn him. Nevermind about him. Anyway, Been quite a boring day today. So came to blog a little. After this going to sleep. Nothing much to blog already. So, tatas everyone(:

Darn it, i can't upload photos in here. No idea how to upload photos now.

I miss my baby.

Love him to bits(:

I HOPE he treating me so good isn't fake. He bought a couple ring. The Ring Of Love. We promised each other, Don't hide anything from each other, have things just say. And he said, the ring represent that he promise we will be together forever. At far east, at some smoking place? We went to smoke, was with Athalie, Deqing. Dear even kneel down and put the ring in my finger and there's people looking also, i was so paiseh. xD Like as if he's marrying me. Hahas. I just hope this isn't just making me happy. But i'm really happy that he loves me and i loves him too! xD My life are filled with colours now. He's the one lighting up my life. My one and only dearest, Darren! iLy-

I will blog about a little about this few days what i've done. On Wed, watched Colic with Darren. It was quite scary. Anyway, i'm back with Darren. He's treating me much better then last time already. After show, met DeQing. Lazy and no time to blog. Always sleep, wake up go out already. Then stay out till very late and tired. On thursday, friday, Chill with friends. Boring but kinda fun. Hahas. Saturday, Went town with DearDear, Athalie and DeQing. Went shopping. Deqing bought 2 shirt from Stussy and X-large, Athalie bought a pair of jean, Baby and i bought belt. After shopping with them. Justin came along too. After then, we decided to catch a movie. Watched 9.56. This movie is damn freaky scary lah! I don't even dare to open my eyes and see. Kept closing my eyes. Hahas. Was real scary. Everyone, Catch that Movie. Damn freaky. Hahas. Alright, After movie we headed back tamp, chill. For Sunday, Meet my baby, DeQing and Nelson. Chill and after that went DeQing's house play Playstation. Hahas. The first time i came his house, asked him to take drinks for me and all. Lols. Then he said "You think you Princess isit?! This is my house leh!!" Lols. Damn funny. It was fun with them. After that, around 12am we went to eat and Baby headed home and now I miss him dearly! =x I guess That's all for now. Gonna head to bed. Tatas.

Last two days, went hospital for check-up. Darren accompany me. This few days, he's been waking up early for me. I'm really happy. We're friends, though i still love him alot. Back to the point, after check-up. Met whit at orchard. She wanna buy a gift for dom, so went with her. We were having fun ourself too. She is damn choosy! Lols. Go quite alot of places. After she bought the gift for her bf, we headed to eat at Cine. Damn fun. After eating, went out to fag. New word learnt. Hahas. Soon after, we went to meet whit's bf, and dom's friends. Cause we don't know what to do, so they planned! We went PartyWorld to sing songs. With them, really won't feel a little boredness. Always having programmes to do. Hahas. That's very cool of them. We sang till 3+ am, after that we cab home already. Uhms, that's all for now? Don't know what to blog much. I can't post photos sia):

Later going to my friend's Birthday party. Happy Birthday to DeQing in Advance(:

Since it's a boring day today for me, i shall blog a little. Okay. On the 7th Nov, i'm admitted into hospital due to overdosage of pills. Not panadols. 23 tablets of Paracetamol. Aww, Now thinking of it, i feel like puking. Just discharged yesterday noon. Warded in hospital is real scary for me. Neverminds, i won't say much. Cause i don't want any one to sympathies me.

Later, i shall have fun, don't think so much of anything. Spend my days, shopping. Even though, it's hard for me to erase those memories, but i've to, in order to lead a better life. I can't hang on to the past all the time. Anyway, Going to meet my Whit at Town, watch Movie. That's all for now.

To you,
Those memories we've known, all the laughter and fun. I'm starting to miss those days when i'm with you. It's real hard for me to forget you now, but i'll pray that we could start from the scratch again. 'ILoveyou', Darren Pereira. From the bottom of my heart.

Emotional Breakdown.
I can't stand it any longer.
I seriously don't know what should i do to make you mine?
Why are you ignoring me times and times again?
What did i do to make you feel this way?
Why should i be treated like this?

No appetite

Ate pills

Drank cough syrup

Slit my wrist

Smoking

Today is our 6 Months Anniversary. (:

Although on Sat, we did quarrel abit but at last, okay already. So around 10+ i went to meet MyBaby, Justin and Nelson at Safra. They were playing Dota. After that, we chill at my dear's house playground there. While we walking back, i told him left 15 more mins to our 6 months. Till we reached the playground. We suddenly talk about my dear's nanny. I was laughing non-stop luh. It's really damn funny. Everyone was laughing. So okay. I was sitting at the see-saw. Suddenly, my dear walked towards me and gave me a kiss and say Happy half year anniversary! I was shocked but of course happy luh. Hahas. Okays, after that Nelson went home, awhile later Justin went home too. Left me and my dear. I told him i was hungry. And it was around 12+ am, i don't wanna eat at coffeeshop. So we head to eat at Mc Donald's. We ate happily, smiling smiling all. Hahas. After we ate, he brought me to Pasir Ris Park at around 1am. Although it was quite a Not nice place but Romantic. We sat at the Rock. Only him and me. We were so happily chatting. I love him cuddling me. =X he say was kinda bored, so asked me to on some songs. After that he say, Let's dance. asked me to stand. Lols. So he teached me how to dance. Not those techno or r&b dance. Was the romantic dance. hahas. i was like kinda scared. Scared got people see, i'll shy. Lols! This was the first time he asked me to dance with him. After awhile, i on Buttons by PCD, he loves to dance that song. Hahaha! It was hot and cute when he dance that. So funny! I spent a Wonderful Night with him. Was feeling really happy! Later gonna meet him too cause it's still our anniversary.<3

He says I'm His Little Princess. (:

Dear, Happy 6 months Anniversary!

I, Star Chen Zi Yun Love Darren Frederick Pereira Till Aged<3